Change in Meds

After a very stressful two weeks of major personality disorders, sleepless nights, and anger issues, the consultation with the doctor resulted in a change in meds. We have stopped the chemo and anti-seisures and we are only administering steriods and mild sedatives. We'll monitor sleep and mood swings. For Lindsey it's all about quality of life, not quantity. We agree. The Lindsey we lived with for the last 2 weeks was some stranger that showed up at our house.

Tonight was a little more normal with a nacho party in the study with Megan and Lindsey. All three of us chowed down and topped the meal off with ice cream. Lindsey actually joked with us. This was the good that we saw today. Megan - thank you for making time in your week to stop by and visit. You make the evening better. (ugh.. what will I do when you move to Hawaii?)

A friend also sent me the card I posted in this update. Laughter is good. Laughter is necessary. I laughed tonight as Lindsey gently toppled over while changing and then proceeded to turn around and moon me... stating, put this on the blog. I opted to go with a photo of the card.

Todd is home this week on Spring Break. Hannah flies home on Thursday evening. Greg will arrive Friday night. I'm looking forward to a full house and celebrating my Great Uncle Hal's 99th birthday on Saturday. It was great to see Lindsey joking this evening with Todd.. you can see the playfulness in her expression. We're praying that this is what we continue to see in the days to come.

A Prayer for the Parents

A note from Mom....

While Lindsey is tolerating the chemotherapy very well (no significant problems with nausea and other tummy issues) the new behaviors surfacing is posing a challenge. We have reached out to Dr. Taylor to inquire about adjusting the medication and to see if we should add a new one to combat the manic type behaviors.

Lindsey finds comfort in me reading to her. Yesterday evening I read outloud while she moved about her room. The evening was going well until at 8:30 she decided that Aunt Nancy needed to come over. In the midst of discussions, Melanie Peters called and she came to the rescue. She came over for about an hour, she helped Lindsey finish up the reorganization of Hannah's closet (yes Hannah, beware...in the midst of the evening she ascended on your room), and we ended the evening with a sampling of desserts from Linda Cloud, Rhonda Mathews, and Chris. At 10:30pm, Lindsey feel asleep. Whew, that was nice. I thought we would have a restful night.

At 1:30am, Bob and I were awakened by Lindsey. She was up and her body was aching. She laid on the floor sobbing. We stretched and we rubbed for 30 minutes. Lindsey laid back down, and we returned to bed. Lindsey did not stay in bed. She decided that the bathroom, once again, needed to be cleaned. This photo is what we awakened to. Most rooms that Lindsey ascends upon ends up like this. You don't dare to help or she becomes violent. This is not our Lindsey.

I ask that you pray for the personality disorders to go away. We ask that you pray for patience and strength for our family. It's exhausting.

Patience and Time

An update from Mom...

I was reminded yesterday that this is OUR time with Lindsey. We should cheris this as nothing is more important than what we have today. So you make time, and you let things go.

This morning during breakfast I read the message below that Hannah sent to me on Facebook. Lindsey has asked me to record it so that she can listen to it over and over again.(Which I will do just as soon as we find the recorders.. which we now have 2 of since she misplaced the first one. These two somehow walked away during the middle of the night. Lindsey has special places for everything but then she decides they need a new special place but she doesn't tell anyone, then she forgets. So.. welcome to our world of things getting misplaced!)

She wept this morning during the reading. She stopped me to ask questions. She was deeply touched by Hannah's note. Her comment at the end... "God is good. If he calls me home, it will be better than all the bad things that go on here in this world."

I'm sure if Hannah were home, she'd give her a big hug like the one demonstrated in this photo.


Hannah Morris March 24 at 4:09pm
I thought this would be something good for you to read to Lindz... I like it because it can all be backed up by scripture.
My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

Thank you HyVee, the Lee's Summit Community, and friends

Lindsey,Bob and I were very touched by the number of people who showed up tonight for the fundraiser. We saw people from church camps that Lindsey attended 10 years ago, from kindergarden school teachers, to the teacher who was present in 7th grade when Lindsey was first diagnosed. That was an emotional moment. Mrs. Green, thank you. Lindsey talks about you often.

I was touched by the number of HyVee customers who came to support Lindsey. Many of you personally sought me out to talk about Lindsey and to express what a delight she is to talk with. Bob and I saw people that we went to high school with, grew up with, etc. We had no idea what to expect. The community rallied and we are very thankful.

You see, most of us have one thing in common. We're parents. And as parents, it's difficult to imagine what it must be like to go through this journey. It's not fun... we wouldn't wish this on anyone. This fundraiser would not have happened without the love and support of Randy Summerville and other co-workers. A few of the HyVee employess are posted in these pictures. The food was wonderful so a special shout out goes to those who showed up early today to begin preparing the food. How does one go about showing their appreciation in an event such as this? At my company, we talk about customer loyalty, which is defined by a number of things, but most importantly, "would you refer the company to your best friend?"

Bob and I would refer HyVee to our best friends, our associates, to those strangers we meet on the street. HyVee takes care of their employees and their actions back up those words.

Thank you Randy and to everyone else who was involved in orchestrating this event. You made Lindsey's day.

Next time you shop for groceries, make your place, HyVee. They take care of their customers and their staff.

Give all to love: Obey thy Heart

While Lindsey is very much in love, she realized last weekend when Greg was in town that marriage may be to much right now.It's too much for her to think about. She's not feeling well and marriage brings on new commitments that she doesn't feel she can adequately fulfill. We're working with the doctors to adjust her meds... while the Gliomas can cause personality disorders, it's unclear to us if this is the tumor causing the behaviors or the combination of meds. Greg is a man of fine character and integrity. He is very good with Lindsey at all times.

Lindsey and I had a good day today. We had breakfast together, I gave her a nice long back-rub, she napped, had lunch, and we went for a little walk and had fun playing in the snow. The evening took a turn South. Tomorrow is a new day and the day of Lindsey's fund raiser. I hope she's feeling well enough to attend.

Lindsey is taking many photos. Photos of everything, even simple daily tasks as demonstrated by the photo on this post. She took this during one of her morning routines. I thought, how appropriate that she's looking upward to the one who is giving her strength and determination.

It's 11:42... she's finally tucked in for the night. We had a good day and it's looking like we may even have a good night. Thank you for your continued positive thoughts and prayers.

The crazy things you do...

The crazy things you do when someone you love is ill....We let our guard down and we said yes....she begged. We said no way. She begged more, and we caved. Aunt Nancy was really brave... her ink matches Lindsey's.

My one and only big sister..

- Note from Todd-

When Lindsey's first tumor struck our family, Hannah and I were far too young to realize what an impact it had on not only our family, but our friends and the community as well. We may all have our days where we can't stop crying, today being mine, I can't help but to think of where we would be without the love, prayers, and support of every single person that has kept our family in their hearts and minds. It amazes me how much support flows into our house every week, whether it be letters, food, money, or ice cream.

I know I've stayed pretty quiet through out this whole tragedy, and I tend to keep my emotions to myself, but I wanted to take this time to sincerely thank every person that has supported my family even in the slightest bit. Growing up with Lindsey as my older sister has been one of the greatest blessing God has given me. I have yet to meet a person with as much altruism, hospitality, and compassion. She's endured more than anyone should ever have to, yet she continues living with a smile and a positive attitude. Even now with her loss in motor function and speech , she strives to please others.

I hope that in my life time I can become a fraction of the person she is today, and always will be in my heart. She's my one and only Big Sis, and that's never going to change. You're never prepared for something like this to happen, and I think we all hope that our families will be untouched by such adversity. When life throws you lemons you have to do everything you can to make some lemonade, no matter how sweet or sour it may be.

Every day we have with Lindsey is a blessing, and I know that the prayers help every step to the path of recovery.

God, I know that you may have greater plans for my sister than she may ever have here, but I'm not going to give her up that easily. I'm from a family of fighters.

I love you Big Sis.

College Graduation

A note from Mom...

When Lindsey learned of her tumor, there where two things she wanted the most. 1 - to graduate college. She had worked so hard and was so close to finishing her degree in education. The second was to get married.

I learned today that Lindsey's friends at school approached UCM administration to inquire about the potential for Lindsey to receive a college diploma. Her friends were informed today that Lindsey does indeed have enough credit hours to graduate and if she is able, she can walk across the stage and receive her diploma in May. These same friends, along with her advisor, will be coming to the house for breakfast in the morning to share the great news. I hope Lindsey is having a good morning so that she can comprehend the message and share in the excitement. (THIS WILL BE RESCHEDULED..... Lindsey was up all night and didn't go to sleep until 5:30am)

If you've been reading Lindsey's blog, you know that our family seeks to find the good in things everyday. This was our good news of the day. In the midst of Lindsey's challenges, and ours, we see God's grace working through others. We see love expressed through Lindsey's college classmates. Classmates who took it upon themselves to approach administration and ask the question. While some may of thought about it, these students took action to ensure a classmate was recognized for thier efforts and results. Because of this effort, at least one of Lindsey's wishes will be met. I'd also bet that these students will be the kind of teacher that any parent would dream of for their child. A teacher who goes above and beyond and who is not afraid to ask the question that only others think of. Thank you Katie. I know that you spear-headed this effort. We are thankful. God bless you.

(The Photo above is of Lindsey and Katie at the HyVee Fundraiser)

Words Cannot Describe

-A Note from Hannah-

I have been home since Friday for Spring Break, and I all though I am extremely happy I was able to fly back to be home with my family for the week, it has been nothing short of challenging and heart-wrenching. I knew that Lindsey would be struggling more than I saw her last (which was only 5 days), but the amount of depreciation that had occurred in that mere week struck me as unbelievable. It is clear that this tumor is not on our side and the cells are dividing rapidly.

The hardest part of all of this is watching my own sister turn into a different person right in front of me, losing her mental and physical abilities, and knowing she realizes most of what is occurring to her. She becomes extremely angry because she can feel the differences in her abilities each day, as everyday tasks becomes harder and harder. She isn't the girl we all knew before; instead, this tumor has her acting out in ways we have never seen before, none of which she can help. She doesn't think rationally most of the time now, and arguing with her or trying to talk rational into her mind is worthless and tiring. As much as we want to help her understand certain things, such as why we can't do something she wants that very second, ect, she is usually not willing to listen.

All we can do is remind ourselves constantly that Lindsey can't help any of what she is experiencing. As much as we are frustrated by the effects of the medicine and tumor growth and as often as we are tempted to argue logic to an irrational person, we have to simply stop and know this isn't her fault. We must value the time we have with her, and try not to spend each day frustrated with her behaviors. Lindsey will always be my older sister, but the tumor has her acting less of a 24 year old each day and more like a young child. Small issues cause her to become hysterical. She hasn't slept a full night in weeks, which means neither have my parents. I am simply exhausted after 3 days; I can't imagine the stress on my parents right now. I thank God for our amazing family that has been so helpful and loving through this.

Thank you all so much for the prayers, cards, and visits. I wish this was all an awful dream, and I could wake up from it right now; however, this is reality and IT SUCKS.

HyVee - Lindsey Morris Benefit Pasta Dinner

Here's the text information about the Pasta Benefit Dinner at HyVee.. in case you're interested. I'm so blessed to work for company like HyVee and for Randy Summerville, Carol Kepkus and all the other great managers and staff.


Lindsey Morris
Benefit Pasta Dinner
March 24th, 4:00 – 7:00pm
$5.00 per dinner

“Hi, I’m Lindsey Morris and I’ve had the good fortune of working for Hy-Vee and with all the great people at Hy-Vee for the last seven years. I typically work the express check-out and if you’re an early morning Saturday shopper you’ve probably seen me. I love my customers. I love chatting with everyone. Heck, I love this place so much that my boyfriend even surprised me with a marriage proposal here at work, with my customers looking on.

I’ve missed this place. I’ve had to take a little time off because I am battling a chronic disease. You see this thing called a Glioma Brain Tumor has decided to make a home inside of my brain. This Glioma has moved in and is working its way into every room possible. (Kind of like I did when I moved back home from college, my mom could always tell where I had been.) While the doctors are telling me the prognosis is not great, I’m telling this tumor and the doctors to look out. I’m a fighter. I fought the fight back in 1998 with my first brain tumor, and I won. I don’t plan on going down without a good fight. With Jesus Christ as my one and only savior and my best friend, we will get through this.

I hope you can join us! I hope I can be there for the dinner also. My brain biopsy is March 3rd, and my treatments will begin shortly after that.

Faith, love, hope and an incredible support system are getting me through this. Thank you for your thoughts, prayers, and support.”

All Proceeds will go to the
Lindsey Morris Hy-Vee Fund
301 NE Rice Road, Lees Summit

Bridal Shower and other misc updates

My Grandmother Morris hosted a lingerie shower for me on Sunday. It was great fun and I received a nice variety of things. Some that Greg will LOVE, and some that I can relax in around the house. Check out a few of the pictures my Dr. Grandpa Morris took.

I got my stitches out today and my head hurt some. So far, the treatments are going pretty good. I haven't gotten sick, my stomach feels fine, but my head does feel heavy and fuzzy. We called the nurse and I am suppose to continue the steriods.

I'm looking forward to getting away for a couple of days with my Mom and Sister. We're heading to the lake Wednesday night for a couple of days. There is something peaceful about the water... and something very fun about shopping at the Outlet Mall. We'll come home Friday just in time for Greg to arrive for the weekend.

The Meds Begin

The Temador came in and Lindsey took the first round last night. So far, she's not feeling any side affects. Those will come as the days pass and the medicine continues. Lindsey's daily dose of meds consists of:

morning - anti-seizure medicine, and anti-depresent
evening - Colace, 1 pill (stool softener)
Senokot-S,1 pill (natural vegetable laxative, plus stool softener)
Valium - 1 pill
Anti-nausea - 1 pill
Temador - 4 pills (1 hour after she takes the pills listed above)

And.. if the first dose of anti-nausea doesn't work, there's another one she can take.

We're a little confused about the steriods... doe she continue to take them daily??? We'll call the nurse on Monday.

Tomorrow Lindsey has requested a family meeting, since both Todd and Hannah are home, to listen to the tape recording from her meeting with the oncologist. She wants them to be aware of what she is up against,what she will be going through, and her desires in the event that the tumor growth does not stop.

Bob and I have received many offers of assistance and for that we are very appreciative. We know that as time goes on, we will need to evaluate how we can allow people to help. It's hard as we are not use to accepting help. We take pride in being self sufficient. Our employers and co-workers have been very accomodating and understanding...we find ourselves wrestling with our own feelings. We have jobs we love, we are committed. We also need to there for our family during this time. For those of you who have reached out, please know that we will be in touch.

A note from Lindsey...

I have my first Bridal Shower to go to! Wow... what a strange mix of emotions I have going on right now. Not only is my speech getting worse, so is my vision. God, please get me to my wedding date. Please don't take that away from me also.

I have established a routine for me to start on Monday. I purchased a large calendar to put on my wall so that I can track my meds, my excercises, my doctor appts, and count down the days until the Hyvee Dinner and my wedding.

On Monday I go to get my stitches out. On Friday, Greg comes in for the weekend. I'm so excited to see my babers! I'm hoping we can go to Holy Smoke for some barbeque.

Thank you to my wonderful neighbor Chris. She brought me the first sign of spring, and something yummy for me to eat. Check out the picture!

My Bucket List

Dr. Grandpa Morris helped me create my Bucket List. Here it is:

1 - A Big Wedding, like huge, like 600 people

2 - A car for me & Greg to have weekend fun here

3 - To see a Chief's game

4 - To see a NASCAR race

5 - To see Dad drive in a race car with a professional race car driver

6 - To take a hot air balloon ride

7 - To spend one day each week hanging out with Dad

8 - To go with Megan to Mark's business one day a month

9 - To go shopping at Independence Center Mall

10 - Holy Smoke Barbeque, whenever

"So little time, so much to do"

my feelings

Dr. Grandpa Morris told me today I need to put my real feelings on the Blog. I spent a fun, but crying day with him. I was to upset to tell him that I do tell my mom what to write in the blog every night. Then she reads it back to me. I have been holding some things back from the updates. o kay a lot of things back. I don't want to make people sad for me.

I'm scared. Every day more words are gone. I have much I want to do. These words are mine. It hurts my head to type much. It takes a long time.

Right now i realized that I cant even read this back by myself unless I look at each word strigt on. k... my mom will type rest.

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Yep... every night and every morning Lindsey visits with me as I get ready for work or for bed. Many nights are sleepless for her ... if she has your phone number beware.. you may get a middle of the night call. While we focus on what we can do, in most conversations with Bob and I, she is tearful. She is aware of the changes occurring... and it's happening pretty quickly. She's trying to stay up beat but it's very difficult if not impossible at times. Tonight we were suppose to start the chemo but the local pharmacies do not have adequate doses of the Temodor. She needs 4 a day and we need enough to carry us until the next shipment comes in. In this area, they found 4 pills. She needs to take 4 a day. Tomorrow we will call the nurse to see what we should do.

Everyday that goes by is another day that we're not stunting growth. You have no idea how difficult it is to watch what this tumor is doing to our daughter. To see her struggle for words, to not be able to say the names of people we have grown up with (but can spell the name),to know that she is so scared of what she has no control over. We are scared too. This part of parenting we are not prepared for. Our beautiful, sweet, compassionate Lindsey. This is simply not fair.

In the midst of it all, Lindsey remains focused on getting things done. If she wants something, be prepared as she is determined to make it happen.

We are deeply touched by our friends(and friends of friends)generosity. Gestures that make it possible for Greg and Lindsey to spend as much time together as possible, while they can. Gestures that simply tell us that you are here for us, that you are sending positive and encouraging thoughts our way.... that you care. It does make a difference.

Thank you.

It's been suggested that I post a picture of Lindsey and Greg on the blog, which is a great idea!

Let the fight begin

Here we go.

As soon as the Temodar comes in at the pharmacist (along with the other prescriptions to offset the side affects of the chemo) this week, treatment will begin - 1 anti-nausea pill one hour before taking 4 Temadar pills, every night. My port for the advexin treatments will be scheduled for sometime next week. Mom will build a spreadsheet to track the prescription administration. We'll make bi-weekly visits to KU for the advexin treatments. Surprising bit of information today... the monthly cost of the Temodar, if a person didn't have insurance would be $6,000 - $10,000 a month. Thank goodness we have insurance.

I also got copies of the MRI scans. Now I can visually see why the KU tumor board did not recommend surgery. This tumor likes me. I can also better understand why radiation is not a viable option. There is to much to go after.

Let the fight begin. I'm going after this tumor. I'll give it all I've got and with the help of my oncologist we'll monitor the effectiveness of the treatment.

Regarding the HyVee Spaghetti Dinner fundraiser for me - It's scheduled for March 24 from 4pm to 7pm. I'll be there. I would love to see you if you have time to stop by. It's at the 291N and Langsford road store. I miss all my friends at work and my customers! Thank you Randy Summerville for being such as kind and gracious manager.

So today.. this quote means more than it ever did before - "Treasure this day, and treasure yourself. Truly neither will ever happen again."

Sleepless Night

Last night I did not sleep. This morning I called Dr. Grandpa Morris at 4:45am. I needed someone to talk to. I want him to come to my dr. appt with the chemo dr. He said he would come. I am going to beat this thing. I'm determined. I've decided that since I'm not working right now that I need to create more structure in my day. Exercise, read/write, help with things around the house. I need to rediscover my purpose.

I found this picture on Hannah's facebook that someone posted.This is a picture of Hannah from one of her dance performances.. one of her friends added the scripture to it. She is amazing. I love it. I love her. She was home this past weekend and was so good to me. She washed my hair, helped me around the house, shopped for dresses, etc.

God is good.

Proton Radiation - Is it a possibility?

Update from my Mom....

Proton is an external beam radiation that releases radiation only where the tumor is, thus not impacting healthy tissue. This treatment also does not have the long term side affects of regular radiation which can result in secondary tumors caused by the initial radiation. (this was not an option 11 years ago for us) We're learning that the current tumor Lindsey has may have been caused by the initial radiation. The question is, can Proton be used this time. If it's an option, we'll travel to Oklahoma for the treatments.

We are waiting for Dr. Massey, who administered Lindsey's first round of radiation, to send us a summary of the treatment fields, where radiation was applied, and how much was applied. We hope to have this by Monday as we're meeting with Dr. Taylor, the oncologist, at KU on Tuesday to determine next steps. (Seems the records from 11 years ago are stored in the caves and not in the computers.)

In the mean time, wedding plans are coming together nicely. A wedding dress, bridesmaid dresses, ties for men, and my dress has been purchased. The musicians, photograhers, videographer, sound technician, pastor, are lined up. We're meeting with the pianist Tuesday night. Rehearsal dinner reservations have also been made. Reception plans are in progress. (Mike - if you're reading this, the status report is Green.)

Lindsey is amazing. She is so thankful and appreciative of everyone. While she is being very realistic about what is in store for her, she has not lost that beautiful smile and gentle spirit. Bob and I are very thankful for the support we're receiving from both parents, and my brother and sister and their spouses... they have been a true blessing to us, as have many of our friends and neighbors (can you say warm Texas cake??? Thank you John and Chris! That was the best cake ever!)

Thanks again for all the prayers and positive thoughts!

Fairy Godmother

Yesterday my Fairy Godmother came to visit me in the hospital. She even brought me a blanket from the hands of angels. She will also be at my wedding so if you want to see her, you need to plan on coming.

Thank you Fairy Godmother and angel hands. I love my blanket. It also kept my mom warm as she attemptd to sleep in the very uncomfortable chair next to my bed in the hosptital.

Sisterly Love

It is all I can do to thank everyone so much for all of the prayers and thoughts for my sister, Lindsey. This whole experience has been pretty nerve-wracking for all of us and we are just trying our best to stay positive and not break down. I've watched my sister go through a lot of things, and I know she is strong enough to overcome this. She is one of the most motivated people I know, which I'm sure all of you would agree with. She handles her obstacles amazingly well, better than I could probably do myself after going through so much. We all love her very much and just can't wait for her Cinderella wedding coming up. It is one thing we have to look forward to, and trust me, it's going to be amazing! If anyone can pull this off, its my Mom for sure.

Lindsey went into surgery, which started at about 9:40 this morning. It should take about 2 hours to complete the Biopsy. The team of nurses and doctors were all great and very friendly. They have these really neat like personal blow dryers that you basically plug into your robe and it heats you up, my Mom thought it was quite hilarious. Lindsey's doctor "McDreamy" promised he would do his best about the hair situation, which made Lindsey feel good. She will be staying overnight, but will probably get to head home in the morning.

UPDATE: The biopsy went perfectly as planned, and she pulled through quite smoothly. The doctor gave her about a 1 inch incision, with 10 stitches that will come out in 10 days. The frozen biopsy indicated that there were a lot of hypersensitive cells present and that it is at least a grade 3 glioma (meaning it started in the brain), he can't tell yet if it will be higher. It usually takes about 5-10 days to get the full biopsy results.

We'll keep ya'll updated. (I had to say that since I live in Texas now) :) Thanks so much for the love!
Love,
Hannah Elizabeth

I Believe

Just as I was having a mini meltdown last night, a friend stopped by with oreo cookies,flowers, and this card that I posted above. Yes, I believe. I believe that God gives us just what we need when it's needed. Thank you Matt Vickery for being my friend.